Barış Özbay: I kill time on the phone, I don't take a shower and I don't want to live

Stating that he spent the whole day playing on his mobile phone, Barış Özbay stated that he did not want to put his life in order and did not even want to take a shower.

"- I kill time on the phone, I play all day long because I have nothing else to do. I sleep when I feel sleepy. Yesterday I slept at 05:00, the next day I slept earlier and it changes from day to day. I was hospitalized for about 3 months, but there was no change in my life.

- I won't understand exactly how psychologists work, but my guess is that their treatment method is mostly about telling people that their situation is not that bad. The patient, who understands his situation, gradually improves. But I am already aware of everything, and I know how to fix it. I could get better if I wanted, but I don't want to, there is no need and I don't want to live. If you ask how to fix it, it's simple, just go for it.

- For example, I feel uncomfortable doing something right now. If I want to get better, I will start simply by taking a shower. It will bother you at first, but once you get used to it, it won't bother you. So you will address everything that bothers you. But I don't want that discomfort. I'm more comfortable this way. I have physical pain because of my illness. But minor physical pains don't bother me much. "It affects games or movies or something, but it doesn't affect it as much as it affects a normal person."

Stating that parents have a high influence on the child's personality and behavior, Özbay stated that what he experiences in games no longer affects him, as he plays on the phone, and continued as follows:

"- I think everything ends with the parents. If you raise the child properly, he will not be affected much. The child may see a murderer in a TV series or a movie and think he is cool and do something. But it is not our fault, it is the parents' fault for raising the child badly. For example, God knows how many people I have killed in games, but even if I kill a fly right now, it hurts.

- The games didn't impress me that much. The fact that I constantly play on my phone has an effect on this situation. It definitely has an impact, but I don't think it's the main factor. It may cause it to get worse. What the effect is, I have no idea. I don't really care. I'm in this situation now. "If I think about and find the main effect of my becoming like this, what will be solved? It is unnecessary, so there is no need to think."

Stating that he did not do his personal care and had not taken a shower for more than 2 months, Özbay stated that being at home made him happy and said:

"- I don't do my personal care and I don't take a shower. As I said, I don't even eat if I could. I don't remember the last time I took a shower, it's been more than two months. I don't even go out into the garden. There's no need. I wonder what will happen if I go out, nothing will change and I don't feel like it. They gave me medication at the hospital. If I continue those medications, I will probably get better.

- I need to go to the doctor after the medications are finished, but I don't want to. I don't want to go out, see or communicate with the doctor. That's why the painkiller they give works. That's why I buy it and use it all the time now. It's a harmful painkiller but I don't care. If you ask me what I think about this life of mine, it is beautiful and perfect. I am happy, I am fine, there is no problem. People are still trying to help. I can't say that these news are very empty.

- I met people, made new friends. Other than that, it had no impact on my life. My life is beautiful, I am happy. I don't care if I suffer or anything. Being at home is enough for me. While I was in the hospital, I met two people who were sick like me. One of them is currently trying to establish his life. He couldn't talk at all while he was there. He's doing a little better now, working a little more and so on. We chat from time to time. "It has no effect on me."